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Fog Of Failure

She set out to conquer her morning run.  Shoes laced, water bottle in hand, her body stretched and fueled. The familiar path brimmed with potential. 3…2…1… Run!

No stranger to the road, this experienced runner girded herself for the task ahead.  Hills.  Turns.  The mental struggle to keep going right before that euphoric “runner’s high”.  Nothing seemed to phase her focus and stride. She was ready!

But then the fog set in.

imageOut of nowhere dense clouds descended upon her path. Her surroundings faded like intricate stones beneath snow – all detail, all guiding markers lost in a blanket of white. She’d run this path so many times before undaunted through rain, wind, blinding sun, and fading light. But as the fog fell thick, her stride slowed to a timid stroll. All experience, all previous runs faded like her surroundings as her bearings blurred to gray. Though she could not hold the fog in her hands, its presence surrounded her to a stop.  Which path to take?  Which direction to run?  Where am I going?  Where am I now?!  Frozen.

Whether we’re runners or not, we’ve all faced this similar dilemma. Course set, skills honed, yet become wary of taking the next step ahead.

When the fog of failure falls, how quickly courage fades.

Perhaps its a familiar road. Perhaps its a new trail. Perhaps its a path long traveled, preparations years in the making. When failure rears its loathsome head, everything goes gray. The fog of failure can render us lost, afraid, immobile.

What if it happens again?
What if you fail?
Remember when they betrayed you? How can you trust again?
Don’t get your hopes up. Remember when…
Do you honestly think you’ll get it right this time?
You can’t. You can’t. You can’t.

Failure immobilizes like a fog. But thanks be to God who shines in our darkness, who lights our path! (Psalm 119:105) Like a ship lost at sea, the Truth of God’s Word and character will give us our bearings, guiding us safely to our destination. It may be slow going for a time but we need not be frozen in the fog. He has given us mileposts, markings, lights to guide our way out through.

What if it happens again?
“I will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 & 8)
What if you fail?
“My grace is sufficient for all your needs for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:)
Remember when they betrayed you? How can you trust again?
“For there is a Friend (speaking of Jesus) who sticks closer than a brother.” (Proverbs 18:24)
Don’t get your hopes up. Remember that past pain?
“”We rejoice in our sufferings knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” (Romans 5:3-5)
Do you honestly think you’ll get it right this time?
“I lift my eyes to the hills from whence does my help come? My help comes from The Lord, Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber.” (Psalm 121:1-3)
You can’t.
“For I am The Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘Do not fear; I will help you.'” (Isaiah 41:13)
“The Lord is my light and my salvations – whom shall I rfear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear, though war arise against me, yet I will be confident. For He will hide me in His shelter in the day of trouble; He will conceal me under the cover of His tent; He will life me high upon a rock.” (Psalm 27:1, 3, 5)

Failures fog will fall. Rather than freezing in fear, we can fix our eyes on the unchanging One who stands strong, His faithfulness sure as the coming dawn. The going may be slow but with our focus set on the Light that shines in the darkness (and the darkness CANNOT put it out), we can navigate through the fog back to clear skies and full strides.

Keep moving forward, Beloved. You are not forsaken.

You are not a failure.

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Rock’n’Roll Half Marathon

Labor Day Week was absolutely incredible!  Three days with some amazing, inspiring women (and one spouse) for lots of laughter, great food, and new memories as six of us ran the Virginia Beach Rock’n’Roll Half Marathon.  The weekend exceeded all my expectations and is one that I will never forget.

I’m so thankful God crossed my path with these incredible women.  While He has moved us each into different seasons of life (and most several hours away), He gave me an invaluable gift in knowing each one of them.  The weekend just magnified to me how precious each of them are and how truly blessed I am to know them.  Over the three days in VA Beach, we did what girls do best and talked ourselves silly about everything and anything!  Parenting, marriage, fitness, Bible study, home schooling, food, fashion, running, struggles, aging, cooking, labor, cleaning, church, hormones….you name it, we covered it.  But no matter the topic of conversation, God spoke encouragement and inspiration into me through each beautiful woman there.  I found myself challenged in every area of life to pursue God and reflect Him more.  The wisdom that so effortlessly flowed out of my humble friends impacted me in ways that words will fail to describe.  These beautiful ladies all left an indelible mark on my life that weekend, one that has made me a better mother, a better wife, a better woman.

The race itself was amazing!  It was my first half marathon and it certainly won’t be my last.  The experience of running towards a common goal alongside 15,000 other people was exhilarating!  From the gun shot start to the final stretch on the boardwalk, I ran better than I ever thought I could.  Only stopping for the restroom, I kept my running pace the entire time.  Several times, I passed teams running in memory of a child or on behalf of a special needs kid…those moments just about broke me as tears flooded my eyes.  What a beautiful way to carry on on behalf of those who cannot.  Even thinking of it now gets me misty.  During that last stretch on the coast, the toll of the whole race started sinking in and I had to dig deep to finish strong.  As soon as my feet crossed the finish line, emotion flooded me like a tsunami.  I actually did it!  I finished what I set out to do!  All I could do was utter thanks to God for carrying me through, the physical and all the mental hurdles of training and the race itself.

What a weekend!  I can’t wait to run my next half.  Hopefully it will whip my then post-baby-#3 body back into shape. 🙂  Here are some pics of the weekend. (courtesy of the fabulous Rebekah King)

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Well, I’ve gone and done it.  I’ve officially signed up for my first half marathon!  How am I feeling?  At the moment – crazy!  It took me 15 minutes to press the “submit & checkout” button.  Running 13.1 miles straight?  And paying to do it?  What am I thinking?!  Craziness!!  But I know in the end, it will totally be worth it.  Some of my dearest girlfriends and I are going to be running together in the race this fall.  Currently, I’m running about 3 miles at a time.  Good for starters but I have a loooooooooong way to go.  So here’s to lots of sweat, aching muscles, and a huge sense of accomplishment.  Let the training begin!


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