Bright-eyed at 5:45a. With a jump and a smile she leapt from bed.
The day had finally arrived. Today everything changes. Today our home will never be the same.
Today Eliana Faith became a Kindergartener!!
I’ve never seen her more excited.
I’ve never felt such bittersweet ache at her gain.
My baby girl now an Elementary Student.
Last night she slept like a rock.
I slept like a restless child, tossing, turning, watching the clock tick slow.
Like the relentless tide so questions assailed my insomniac mind.
Did I do enough? Where did I fail in preparing her? How did the long days of toddlerhood pass in a flash? Is she ready? Did I do enough?!
I will lift up my eyes to the mountains;
From where shall my help come?
My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.
He will not allow your foot to slip;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade on your right hand.
The sun will not smite you by day, Nor the moon by night.
The LORD will protect you from all evil;
He will keep your soul.
The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in
From this time forth and forever.
(Psalms 121:1-8 NASB)
Though she came from my womb, she was knit by heavenly Hands. All her days were ordained before one came to be. In God she lives and moves and has her being. His plans for Eliana brim over with hope and love. His thoughts towards her outnumber the stars. His mercies pour out afresh on her every morning.
On Eliana. And her momma.
Grace. Grace. God’s grace.
Grace that will cover and cleanse within.
Grace. Grace. God’s grace.
Grace that is greater than all my sin.
Where I lack, His grace covers. Where I fall, His arms reach low to lift me up. Where I have failed my daughter, His love remains strong on her behalf. He has not called me to be a perfect mother.
Just a faithful one.
Today begins a new chapter of learning to trust God further, to lean on Him harder, to release what is ultimately His into His steadfast arms.
Eliana, you continue to teach me faith, to adjust my eyes to see God’s continued answered prayers. Walk tall today, sweetheart. You are ready for this. Not because of me but because Almighty God walks with you wherever you go. Listen for His voice. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Enjoy today, my darling girl. You are ready!
A Life Of Patience 